Today is very bittersweet for me. I never expected to be a mom that was upset to see the school year start. I am always so anxious for the new school supplies, for fall coming up, for new schedules and routines and structure, and some time for myself, but to be honest, I spent a lot of yesterday crying.
We have just had a rough past three weeks. My ear infection that had me sidelined ended up turning into a double ear infection, bronchitis, and strep throat. And I ran a fever for almost two weeks. If that alone doesn’t give a mom trying to prep for back to school chills (feverish chills, with that), then add in a bit of shortness of breath, some chest pressure, and plenty of coughing, and you’ll understand what I was dealing with. Thankfully I am on the mend, but I just felt like I lost the last few weeks of summer. It was completely out of my control of course (which almost feels worse), but the kids and I were inside and stuck at home, and I just felt like those days were wasted. And it’s not even that we didn’t get a few things done off our Bucket List. I was totally happy with all the fun things we did all summer, and we had a great time! We had beach trips, and mountain trips, Dance Camp, swimming, playing outside and at the park, picnics, and so many fun activities, but I just wanted these last two days to be the cherries on top, but instead they were filled with errands, putting away laundry, and things I wanted to have done weeks ago. As in, the weeks that I was lying on the sofa, sick as a dog. Yesterday I definitely let these past two days overshadow the rest of the fun we had, and I should’ve known better.
As I was looking at my almost-first-grader and thinking back on the past few months, I asked her if she had had a good summer. “Yes!” She exclaimed, without a second thought. I asked her what her favorite part was. “Playing with my brother and sister,” she said. So even the fun trips and the time and effort I put into lots of activities and plans, it was the down time, the lazy days, and the simple playing at home that was most memorable, and the most fun.
So even if these past three weeks were really, really hard on me, and definitely not what I wanted to be doing, maybe God knew we just needed to rest. We needed a break from our running, and our errands, and our lists, and our activities and everything else I had planned, and we just needed to rest at home, and the kids needed more independent time with each other. Maybe it wasn’t more activity that we needed to round out the summer with, but less. More movie nights (days? :)), more jammie days, and more snuggling on the sofa. So maybe the end of our summer wasn’t so bad after all. I am going to embrace today, and instead of be sad about the summer ending, and about my six, four, and almost three year olds growing up way too quickly, and be happy for the fun we had as a family all summer long.
Though, seriously, the strep?? Could’ve done without that.
If your kids are going back to school today or this week, I hope they have a wonderful time and love their teachers. And I hope you adapt to your new schedule quickly, and can get a coffee in for a few minutes of peace by yourself, and give your self a pat on the back!